SCARED OF HAVING ANOTHER BABY, HOW CAN I HANDLE IT

When I found out I was having another child, I was really scared about being a mum to another one, I haven't finished with Jina now another one. At least with jina's pregnancy, i was excited, woke up whenever i
wanted, slept whenever i wanted, went out, stayed out. I was so free and nothing could go wrong. Now i cry a lot, forget a lot, cook a lot and have to check up on jina almost every second so she won't scatter the
whole house and harm herself on top.

So we decided not to register her in school, which is a good decision to us but isn't for me....I have to stay up late to blog and still wake up early to take care of things. I have no nannies, helps, family members and it's really scary...Is this what I'll face with the next or am I just being paranoid. Now jina is learning to talk, she says everything sayable, and any little minute of rest i gets she starts screaming and opening my eyes to watch her play....

I used to just sit down and cry over this , I mean real cry. Today, i had to beat her cause she was being too naughty and scattered my vitamin tablets all over the dining room. She gets upsets when things don't go her way and wees on herself when she's scolded so i have to mop every time( we are doing potty training, so she doesn't wear  diaper at home) cause you have to shout on her every time to stop her from being naughty

 At this point I have come to accept that maybe she will get worst or she will calm down when she sees her sibling.... How are the mummies with 2 kids handling this? Please comment below and if you would like to chat...email me @ nicoleuhiara08@gmail.com